The show started around twelve, I had about four categories ahead of me. Finally my turn came, we were about 10 women split again on different bikini’s categories such as bikini tall, bikini novice, bikini over 30. We all got on stage for the first passage, guided by the event’s speaker who asked us to do the regular posing which is usually : face, right , back , left . Then we had our solo routine, which basically you can do what ever you want and most of all what sell you the most. I did my routine pretty confident, later after my routine, my mother mentioned that, in her opinion my back posing wasn’t good enough compared to what I have been doing in repetition with her. Besides that she found my presentation excellent in overall. The judges made their decision and I came second which I found iniquitous, because my body shape, my posing and my routine was very good compared to the winner, so I wonder how? And on what criteria their decision was based? Don’t give me wrong the winner was good too, we are all athletes and we have been working hard to shape our body, I am just giving my opinion and my overview. The result left me be a bitter feeling, because I think the favourite was known even before we stepped on the stage, in my opinion again. I am quite sure That i didn’t have any chance to come first what ever I would have done. That is the kind of things which drive me crazy .
Anyway I have this trophy « second place « which keep reminding me New Zealand’s competition and I don’t know what or how to feel, especially that I know now that the reason that I lost it is because the judges find me to build according to one of them. I can see you coming already with your quote « the importance is to participate » or « you were second it is already very good ». I don’t take it SORRY, when you know that the results are not right, and you have all those people coming to you and telling you that they didn’t expect that end too, and they also find the results unfair, Trust me you can not be happy. For any reason they pick on on me, I just want to say « people get over your little person with corruption, racism, inequity etc , the world is moving there is not anymore place for that bullshit ».